She absolutely adored my babies, and one of the last days before she went into a coma she had been doing very poorly, but I brought Audrina in and laid her gently in her arms and she started talking and waking up to see her. She kissed Audrina's face over and over and I said, "There's nothing better than the smell of a baby, is there Nana?" She smiled, closed her eyes and said, "No - there's just nothing else like it." Her and Grandpa had an amazing relationship, at 90 years old, he still treated her like a queen. I am heartbroken for him tonight... but I know he was ready to let her rest and be free in heaven. Trusting God to heal our hearts in the days ahead.
I went to say my final goodbye a couple days ago. She was in a coma, and I was there alone, so I wasn't sure what to do - I wanted her to know I was there. So I climbed up into her bed, held her hand and curled up and snuggled with her. Things have been so hard with the girls, and the thought of losing someone I love was enough to do me in. I sobbed myself to sleep in her lap, the unfairness of life weighing on me. But when I woke up, I woke up with more peace than I have ever known. I hadn't needed advice, or a calm friend, or a voice of reason. All I needed was a lap to cry in. A warm hand that was so very close to heaven. Nana did for me in a coma what she has done for everyone in our family, all our lives - filled us with love and understanding and made everything right with the world. So as we lay her to rest, I ask you to say a prayer thanking God that she is rocking babies in heaven now.